com'n'go

Is something wrong with me? Let me explain you why I think so and I will be grateful for you giving me your opinions!

As I told people in the apartment where I live change very rapidly. They come and go and right now, I'm the oldest person in here (in terms of time that I've lived here). And recently there have been a lot of new people coming. Unfortunately, one really cool person has just left :( But hopefully, she will be back within a few days or weeks because she will probably have a job offer here. Let's pray for this!

I must admit that my current flat mates are really cool. Let me list them - Ashley (US), Mona (EG/UK), Dimitra (GR), Yahaira (MX), Hayat (NL/Morocco), Arnica (NL), Khalil (TN) and often guests Felicia (RO), Ksenija (YU) - btw, Khalil is the only guy and he will leave on Monday so there is going to be me and girls only :)

However, there is one issue. I kind of prefer to spend time alone instead of with them. It's not something about them. It's rather inside me. I guess that it's not easy for me to build a trust with them. There is no this connection that makes me feel comfortable and speak about everything. They are all nice but I have an impression that they cannot be my true friends. Although, I feel I should get along with them more there is something inside me that prevents me from doing that. I prefer to spend time in front of my laptop, working, learning French and chatting with friends.

Are these the first signs of me facing the challenge of people coming and going here? I was warned that it would not be easy to live here 13 months whereas people usually come for 2-4 months.

What am I supposed to do? Force myself to be more open which I don't feel I have such need or remain in front of my laptop what I feel like doing more but still it's very weird and not healthy I guess?