a 10-week-long dentist visit

It's exactly half of my stay in Poland. I arrived 30 something days ago and I will leave in 34 days.

And I still don't feel good here. I accepted the fact that I would have to spend summer here. However, I cannot be happy here. At least most of the times.

Besides, missing my Morocco and the life I had there, there is more that makes me feel the way I feel.

Objectively looking at my life here - the majority of the aspects is with no question making me feel bad. There are few positive aspects though. I'll list all of them so that you can judge it yourselves if you want.

Why I am unhappy:
-I am stuck in my hometown for 10 weeks of this summer; usually I can only handle 2 days in a row; I simply cannot live in this place for good anymore,
-I have a shitty job here,
-I have no friends around and no social life - the closest friends are 50 km from my hometown, the pubs/bar are simply not for me here,
-my parents are not happy to see me going to see my friends and spending nights elsewhere than home, they aren't happy to host my friends here either,
-I am broke - no savings, just debts to different people and my bank,

The positive aspects:
-by the end of the summer, I will have had enough money to survive the first month in Brussels, before getting paid there,
-I have the Internet connection here (seriously, if I didn't have it, I would not be here under any circumstances; it's not that I'm Internet addict but that I can keep in touch with those I miss),
-by the end of the summer, my thesis will have been finished,
-I got back all my stolen/expired IDs, driving license, etc.,
-I still manage (despite all the difficulties) to see my friends from time to time.

I knew what would await me before coming here. I just didn't realize it would be so hard to face it all. From some points of view, the decision to come for this summer to Poland and not to go anywhere else was good (money or studies wise). I would compare it with an appoitment at the dentist's. You know it will hurt and will be unpleasent, but at the same time you know you have to do it. And this is what I'm doing right here, right now. I'm trying to survive a visit at the dentist. It started more than a month to go. And still more than a month until this visit is over.

I will survive.