people - part cinq (and places)

As I wrote once, I guess I don't feel like getting to knows other cultures very deeply. Especially by living in other countries for longer. I want my next country after Morocco to be the last one where I will settle down.

I mean it's cool experience when you live abroad, work, travel, enjoy, learn, teach, develop and most of all meet great people. But what's the purpose of gaining all these stuff if you will never see 90% of people that you meet... Can't you gain the same experience being in one place of the world? That should be enough, shouldn't it? What's the matter of growing if you grow for yourself only. It's cool to spend some months abroad (it really develops you) but what's the purpose of moving from one place to another and seeking for no one knows what? Isn't too egoistic? Towards your family, friends or for THIS ONE - they all want to have you there with them. You just lose contact with some people.

It's true that by living abroad you happen to meet lots of amazing people - I've been experiencing that for more than 7 months here in Rabat. You easily establish a connection with newly met people. But how often is it a real deep connection? How much time do you need to transform it into a real friendship? How often is the connection really shallow? With how many of these people will you stay in touch? On how many of these people you can truly count? In such case, I guess living all the life in one place is much more convenient. You have more chances to stay in touch with the people and really take care of the relations. Relations are like plants. You stop taking care of them and they die. Staying in one place makes it more probable to handle them more successfully.

Sometimes, I'm tired with being citizen of the world. Sometimes, I would like to become citizen of one country or of one certain city. Not moving my ass from the same place too often, having all the services, entertainment and of course the most important people - everything in one place all the time. Leaving it from time to time for a short trip somewhere outside. Enjoying the trip, but being a bastard ignorant towards visited places and all the time being more than sure that there is no better place to live than your home.

Is it really about experience only? Shouldn't it be about the people too? I truly believe you can balance it and that's what my life is about... I have the faith I can do it. I have the faith in myself... in meeting these people... that person in that one place...

Sometimes, it is said that through living abroad you have the time of your life. You work, travel, enjoy and thanks to this you meet a lot of people. You can have friends all over the world. Yeah... are they really all your friends? So why do we sometimes feel lonely? Why do I feel so right now?

Maybe, these conclusions are the result of the fact that I've recently been in the low/hate stage of my stay here. Maybe I'm getting older. Maybe I want the stability. Maybe all of that.

Anyway, international experience is great - it makes you learn about the world, about the other countries, about the other people and... about you and your country a lot (since you look at yourself with different perspective). But once you acquire all these things you're done with it. You don't need anymore international experience. So just finish it. Pick the most glamorous moment to finish certain things in the best way possible in order to keep them in your memory shining and glowing.