experience restarted!

If you look up at my Morocco counter it will show 250 days since I got here. Less than 5 months to leave. Crazy? Unbelievable?? Yes, it is! Almost 2/3 of my stay here have already passed.

However, somehow the last 2-3 months were weird. I felt kind of weird and unhappy... I was complaining a lot and people were only asking me what I was still doing in Morocco. With such complaints I should be going back home...

I was trying to figure out what factor is responsible for my bad mood:
-is the fact that I lost money in France (fuck the strikes!), then was robbed in Spain and in consequence I was suffering from 4€ expenses per day limit?
-was it because of the empty flat I was living in? 4 bedrooms, huge living room and lots of other facilities just for 2 people? It was like a castle and all the good summer memories related to the apartment just vanished.
-was it because of the one month insecurity because of changing the flat? Then disappointment because of not living in the place where I was supposed to and with whom I was supposed to? Because of being almost alone to clean the old apartment of things left by ex trainees of the past 3 years? Because of moving to a flat with cockroaches and Turkish toilet instead of a very modern one?
-was it because of the break up in December?
-or finally because of the fact that "I'm a total neurotic. One minute I can be walking down the street totally happy and the next minute I'm depressed for no reason"?

Anyway, I hope it's not just the good mood of these days. I hope it's a permanent change. Maybe it's my positive attitude because of the secret? I feel much better. Also, my financial problems are a bit smaller and I have a new flat.

I guess that looking at the list above it was the old flat that kept keeping my mood so bad. Now, I live in another place with a very cool flat mate, close to the office and I have a TV. Yesterday, I was just lying down on the coach and watching some French channel. It was so relaxing. I feel so much better... Even killing cockroaches is like a fun :) Or fixing the problem with shower was the most hilarious thing that I went through.

All of that made me feel a bit as if my Morocco counter had been restarted. Again, I feel as if it was just the beginning of my experience here. As if everything was starting once more. Of course, nothing will be as it was in June 2007 but somehow these days remind of that times. And once again, I have the feeling that it's going to be hard for me to leave Morocco and go to other country even if I find the best internship ever. I will just miss this amazing year of my life. I'm so happy to again enjoy my restarted experience!