Monday, February 25, 2008

"Mrs. Dalloway said she would buy the flowers herself"

Last night, I saw "The Hours" – one of my favorite movies ever. I’ve seen it four or five times over the past years and for sure last night was not the last time. I watch it from time to time.

It’s so deep and intense. It’s about being loved and being unable to love back. It’s about not understanding the world and yourself especially. It’s about being lonely among a lot of people that truly care about you. It’s about being stuck and not able to breath. It’s about getting insane although you are in the middle of undergoing the treatment against this state.. It’s about the desire to live although it’s not possible to make it come true. It’s about having everything but feeling like having nothing. It’s about not being understood. It’s about desperately trying to live the way you want to live – not the way you are supposed to live. It’s about trying hard but all the time failing. It’s about lack of hope. It’s about the death and the life. It’s about wanting to be free. It’s about having to live. It’s about facing the hours of silence.

This is such a powerful movie. It’s very sad and even depressing but actually last night when I saw it I discovered the positive ray it has in itself. One of the person has to die so that others will understand to value their lives more. And so it happens at the end.

Anyway, you may seem I am a freak but I do like to dive into atmosphere of this movie. It shows the things I am afraid of in my life. It shows the things I never want to have or those that I want to escape. By watching it I seem so dangerously close to them which is kind of thrilling. Don’t worry. It’s not a self-destructive instinct. I still believe in the power of the secret :) And even if you don’t like the movie you will be amazed by Meryl Streep, Nicole Kidman, Julianne Moore and the music by Philip Glass.

Instead of enjoy it I will rather wish you – contemplate it!

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

I related to your blog. It was nice to read of someone else being drawn to the movie as I am. Last night I rented "Mrs. Dalloway" the movie with Vanessa Redgrave. I really really enjoyed it and it made me appreciate "The Hours" even more.

Unknown said...

oh i have a huge poster of the hours in my bedroom. it is one of my favourite movies as well. i see it as very positive though. it never depressed me. this is best approach to life: look life in the eye, see it for what it is... ( i omit "then put it away" because it will take care of that by itself when time comes :-). have you read mrs dalloway? if you haven't, then you should. it's something out of this world. take care and try not to buy the flowers yourself.