a friend or foe?

Was I actually blessed or cursed by the fact of going to Morocco and living there for one leap year and three weeks? Blessed, I may say, if I consider the people that I met (my habibi and all the friends), the parties I went to, the places I visited etc. On the other hand, however, I was cursed. I was shown a fabulous and thrilling lifestyle but one day I had to finish that and come back to Poland with too high expectations of re-establishing that in Brussels 10 weeks later. Those expectations have not been met yet and I am not sure if they ever going to be (I do hope so). Therefore, I guess Morocco was my friend (or even lover) and foe at the same time. After all, it is love and hate relationship so it involves extreme feelings.

All my work mates from here did not have such a great time abroad. And they are happier here than I. Even if I tell them what I went through they will never understand that. And maybe it’s better for them. At least they are not aware of the fact that their lives could be way more interesting. They don’t know that they can have more. And I was blessed but this is over – now I am cursed. I was shown the real life and it was taken from me. I am trying to get that back but with little results for the moment.

The only hope for me is the people. It’s actually always about the people. Logically speaking and being totally honest, Rabat is way more boring than Brussels. There is less internationals, more cultural restrictions and less places to go out. The reason why I enjoyed it more was because of the amazing individuals that I had met almost right away and that I kept meeting all the time within this leap year and three weeks. So therefore, the only manner to enlarge the excitement of my time here in Brussels is to meet great people. It might be difficult to meet the Rabati type but I do believe it is still possible. I guess I am doing pretty ok to achieve that and my plans for reaching that in the near future are also good – now, it’s only the time to put that into practice.

And then pray to remove the curse and apply the blessing. The blessing of having life is a movie – part deux bruxellois.