I am here in Vimeiro, Portugal in this fabulous and luxurious three-star hotel (this amount of star is a lot for me). I participate in the trainings to learn more about the area I work for. During the breaks I eat delicious food and I don't have to waste any time for preparing it. The room is cleaned everyday and I don't need to make the bed because the cleaning lady does it. I have a great view from the ocean. I can use the swimming pool (outdoor or indoor), sauna or hammam. I took part in some crazy and funny teambuilding games. I am going to spend the weekend in Lisbon and do whatever I want.
The people here are nice. But what's the point in that if I don't have any connection with them. They are all really nice but no connection whatsoever to have some cool conversations. I look out of the window and I see a great beach. I wish it could be the beach of Rabat near the Oudayas where I spent quite a lot of time with my friends talking and having fun. I also see the swimming pool and I wish it was the one from Marrakech (the trip to the Red City in February 2008) or any of those where I went for the swimming pool parties in Rabat (in Souissi last in August 2007 or in Hay Riad in May 2008).
Is this suffering right now sort of a payment for my fabulous life in Morocco that I had? If we are very happy at some point of our lives do we have to be sad in other points just to compensate it and balance? Or is it only because of the contrast and we feel how much we have lost? Can't we be happy more than a moment? At some point of my stay in Morocco I thought - "that's the beginning of happiness. I just have to survive my 2 months in Poland and that's all! Later I will be happy again!" I guess the moment of happiness was just that moment some months ago but not the period.
It's what Meryl Streep said in "the Hours"
I just hope she was not totally right...
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